I wasn't sure you'd — I wasn't thinking that far ahead! Uh-!
[THINK, WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT TROUBLES?
Ah, right. Nightmares! The nightmares and the, the nosebleeds?
(You will not tell someone like him about any of that. You will not discuss anything about the drift or your nightmares with him, not ever!
Do not speak to the Doctor about the precursors; do not speak to either Doctor of your symptoms.)
No, no, he shouldn't talk about that stuff. Too personal. Uh-
He rubs his hands through his hair, and his mind stumbles around for something else.]
I've never had this many friends before, and I'm terrified I'm gonna mess it up, because I always mess this kind of thing up; I get defensive and I lash out, and I make really stupid choices, and I'm scared to death I'm gonna end up pushing everyone away because they think I'm an unlikable weirdo who isn't worth their time — especially the person I'm too scared to tell that I'm in love with them!
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Date: 2021-09-10 08:05 pm (UTC)I wasn't sure you'd — I wasn't thinking that far ahead! Uh-!
[THINK, WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT TROUBLES?
Ah, right. Nightmares! The nightmares and the, the nosebleeds?
(You will not tell someone like him about any of that. You will not discuss anything about the drift or your nightmares with him, not ever!
Do not speak to the Doctor about the precursors; do not speak to either Doctor of your symptoms.)
No, no, he shouldn't talk about that stuff. Too personal. Uh-
He rubs his hands through his hair, and his mind stumbles around for something else.]
I've never had this many friends before, and I'm terrified I'm gonna mess it up, because I always mess this kind of thing up; I get defensive and I lash out, and I make really stupid choices, and I'm scared to death I'm gonna end up pushing everyone away because they think I'm an unlikable weirdo who isn't worth their time — especially the person I'm too scared to tell that I'm in love with them!