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[groupiedrifter]

Jesus.

[He runs a hand down his face, and while his whole body goes hot with the urge to raise his voice — he at least knows he's at fault for reaching out to this guy in the first place. But boy, he didn't expect that. Something in his stomach twists up, and he makes careful fists, but swallows down his immediate urge to lash out, because it'd probably make the guy really content with the reaction.]

... I mean, I figured you'd be a bad choice, but I shockingly didn't have as many options as I thought. Do you do that to your friends, too? Make them feel like shit?

[But this is The Doctor, right? Clara wanted them to get along, and she had faith in him. Hell, she loved him. Whatever version, he's not completely sure, but it stands to reason every Doctor means the world to her. And Clara means so much to him — is he missing something here? Does he just talk to her like this all day? Make her feel like she's stupid for bothering? Every outburst coiling up in him has to be beaten down, and he tries really hard to keep her in mind. Don't freak out, you reached out first; this person is Clara's person!

He stops, and asks tightly:]

Do I really seem like that?

[attackbrows]

No. That is not the question!

[See? This is exactly what happens whenever he gets himself in these sorts of overly emotional tit for tats. You tell one person the truth of the matter and suddenly you’re the big bad wolf.

That seething anger on the other side of the device is all too familiar. The Doctor knows it all too well. You don’t run all throughout time and space with an air of careless bravado and not have it circle and bite you? It happened to him before with Rose. And it happened again with Amy and Rory. He can’t be the same Space Peter Pan people once thought him to be. That mask has long fallen off.

And so he keeps this as simple as possible:]

You wanted to tell me your troubles; I confirmed them. This is not about me placating half-truths to you. This is about you asking yourself: “How long will I keep running for?”

[groupiedrifter]

... Bullshit, dude.

You don't get to use the 'tough love' argument to be an asshole to someone who tries to reach out. Those two things aren't mutually exclusive. You're just using being honest as a way to be a big dick, get rid of them by acting like they're such a drain on your life energy.

So sorry to waste your time, Doctor.

Forget it, this was a mistake. I was vulnerable long enough, it sucked and now I remember exactly why I shouldn't do it. Thanks for nothing, and you can go fuck yourself.

[BEEP.]